My Love-Hate Relationship With Being My Own Boss

Updated: Mar 31, 2020

To a lot of people, especially the ones fed up with their monotonous corporate lives, being their own boss is like a dream come true! I’d be lying if I said I was any different. Back when I had a full time job, I remember dreaming about days like these. Days with freedom to work on my terms, days with no need to commute through the dreadful Bangalore traffic, and most of all, days spent working towards building my own dream. However, now that I am really living the #HustleLife, I have understood that things are not as rosy as I thought them out to be. Here’s all about my love-hate relationship with being my own boss.

What I Love

  1. The Hustle: As overused as the word is, I honestly never really felt it until I started working on my own business. Now don’t get me wrong here. I wasn’t a lazy employee even back in my 9-7 corporate job days. I’ve always been a hard-worker, and I really gave my best to all the jobs I took up. But, this. This is different. I can’t even tell how. It’s just a different kind of drive that keeps me up. I think about it in my sleep, I think it in my dreams and I think about it even on my weekends. I love this feeling of ideating constantly and coming up with ways to grow faster. Just a job couldn’t have got this out of me.

  2. The Flexibility: I’ve always been a night person. Not that I don’t enjoy mornings, but I just work better at night. But with a 9-7 job, I never had the opportunity to give myself the flexibility to work during my best hours. The office had a schedule, and I more or less stuck to it. I almost got used to that life, until I started living this one. I now work constantly into the wee-hours, keeping most of my creative work for night. I like that I get to make my own schedule, defines my own timelines, and most of all make my own rules (in a way).

  3. The Challenge: I won’t be breaking grounds when I say this- running your own business isn’t easy. There are numerous things to consider, and a hundred hurdles to be crossed every day. The to-do list keeps growing, and your multitasking skills are put to a real test. But amidst all this, there’s a real feeling of pleasure. The pleasure of seeing you grow everyday, the pleasure of making yourself proud every once in a while, and most importantly, the pleasure of seeing your own baby grow. The challenges I face everyday gives me different kind of high, and keeps me running on my toes all the time. At the cost of sounding repetitive, again, a job could never have given me this!

What I Hate

  1. The Employer-Employee Duality: It super fun to be your own boss. Being your own employee on the other hand, not so much. Why, you ask? Because the employee is lazy. :P No matter how driven you are for your idea, getting the corporate laziness out is a mammoth task. I’ve had days when I just want to have a day off, and days when I want to make an excuse and sleep off. Weekends are always a challenge, because the boss in me wants to keep going, but the employee just won’t budge. It may sound funny, but trust me, the struggle to keep up with this internal battle is real.

  2. The Constant Urge to Promote: When it’s your own idea, you want to talk about it all the time. I’ve had this problem on more than a few occasions now. I know there shouldn’t be any shame in promoting your work, but it’s such a task to draw the line. In my case, since my work is all things social media, this problem gets even more convoluted. Long story short, I hate that I constantly have to worry about when it’s okay to promote, and when it’s not.

  3. The Non-Existent Social Life: Yep, I saved the worst for last. Working on my own idea keeps tied down all the time. Like most people I know, I don’t really have fixed work hours and dedicated off-days. And, this really gets in the way of meeting people and socialising. With someone like me, every minute I waste doing things that don’t concern my business, I lose my mind over it for the next two days. Ugh. It’s annoying.

So, there it is. If you’re considering moving towards the #HustleLife, these points might really help you set your expectations right.

But here’s a secret. Despite all that I’ve written here, there’s one other thing that I’d like you to know- no matter how long the list of things I hate grows, I’ve never been happier in my life! :)


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